Life's a gamble

"I used to be a heavy gambler. But now I just make mental bets. That's how I lost my mind."
— Steve Allen

Dandelions

Am.....not sure if I've posted these two pictures up before, but they were taken REALLY long ago, like beginning of this year hahahaha and everytime I see it I still smile because it's really dorky and lame. But i like ^^
Examinations have been filled with last minute cramping and mc-s to retake - speaking of retake I'm not going for my exam tomorrow hahahahaha principle of fucken management. Because I've only been to class twice this sem and I dont know shit. Was determined to prove my classmates wrong but since they don't like me, what do I have to prove to them? Might as well just retake and start all over next sem, hmm. I know I should study hard now blah blah blah whole future/career ahead of me, but I know I'm good at other things. Not everyone is cut out to study, ya' know?  Daddy and I aren't talking. Well, it's been that way since forever but recently it's just been getting worse. : ( Whatever, it's not like I was dependent on him in the first place. Never and never will be.
I haven't seen bryanz in ages......... kind of feel like a sucky friend lately. I promised him I'll meet him everyday until the 11th but I had exams and studying to do, but since tomorrow I'm not going I WILL MEET HIM FOR LUNCH. HA! SEE THIS? CALL ME WHEN U SEE THIS!!! <3 
Oh and to see Ven Kelly and Celest as well! Mahjong and banluck okkkkkkk???!? Hardcore xx 
Oh well until tomorrow................................ I am so tired now - off for one last cig at my balcony and I'm going to bed.
Fuck no more already zzzzz

"Dandelions stand for wishes coming true."
Getting a new one next week! Excited! 8)

Tight scene in a loose world

This is how's this week has been for me. A blur, a haze, unclear, unsure.

But it also showed me the people who really care around me. And I'm so glad for them. I know, even if you're nice to me, I may not be as important as I think I am to you. But it doesn't matter. If you don't learn to treasure it now, you'll lose it sooner or later.

Benson and Darlie hv been staying over so much often recently, I think tonight is going to be the last time because their unit is at Kranji starting from next week. : ( Wdv! We had fun guys!



and that day we tried to enter escape themepark (and failed), got caught in the rain, went cycling to changi instead, took a walk at the old hospital, bought drinks and rolled in leaves and wet grass 

Hi dearest bbgy I LOVE U SO MUCH! Thank you for always being there! I promise I will too. *eyelashes*
p/s: Life's been good to me in all parts except studies. Exams are next week and I hope I'll be able to scrape through. I! want! to! play! ban! luck! and! mahjong!

Cut

Remember the last time I stayed over at your house, just the both of us? When we fell asleep talking about boys and what they like, girls and why they always get angry, who we'd rather do and laughing like hyenas until our eyes shut and it was a new day?
Well I can't.
That's how long it has been. We always said after O levels it'd be back to the same, old, us who would stay out every night playing mahjong, talking, smoking, laughing, binging, but what happened?
Now you're (almost) gone.I want you to stay, I want you back badly.

You've always been complaining about your freedom (or rather, lack of) but what about now? Things are going to change now. I don't want to cry but i always fail. I want to walk away from you so badly but I can't.
Just take care of yourself from now on, ok? You're the only boy I'll ever love so much as a kid brother. 
xx Chantelle